There is a forty-day fast in Theodora, a spiritual conversion that I tried (very hard!) to write appropriately for the time and for the character.
When, as a Buddhist who grew up Catholic, I came to write this part of the book it was with both trepidation and also enthusiasm. Enthusiasm because I love the idea of a contemplative life, always have. Trepidation because I wanted to get it ‘right’ – yes to the time and historical accuracy, but more to the needs of the character. Many people have written about Theodora’s conversion, either as a a cynical lie, or as a blinding epiphany.
For me, being/becoming Buddhist, though I have been practicing 25 years, has been a much longer process of slow understanding, slowly taking in, slowly becoming. That probably makes sense, I’m sure, to the average western view of Buddhism as a calm/removed state of being (which is not – often – my experience!!), but it took much much longer than forty days for the solidity of my practice to become habitual, then ingrained, then part of me, I think it’s still becoming that.
We don’t need to be Christian, or Catholic, or faithful at all, to realise that the real usefulness of Lent – a time of consideration, of listening – a forty-day time of doing anything valuable is a fine thing. (ie, long enough so that it begins to become more than just a game.)
It is extremely old-fashioned to think of Lent as a time of giving up. Even when I was at school 35 years ago, we were encouraged to consider it as a time of doing more – praying more, thinking more of others, looking outside as well as in.
I imagine most of us can do with a time to do this, we don’t have to call it ‘Lent’, but the run-up to really-truly spring is as good a time as any to consider where we are, and what we’re doing.
I’m grateful to a complete stranger who prompted me to write today’s blog, by writing her own blog about my book. Thank you.
I love that this Buddhist, looking at that Orthodox saint’s life, gave a modern Methodist* something useful. If we all managed forty days of doing something useful, that might be a start?
We went to the funeral of a good woman this afternoon. A woman who most certainly was not about giving up – who did masses in her too-short life, who travelled and gave and loved and learned and didn’t stop and was still learning – actively studying – and planning to travel more, do more, be more when she died suddenly last week.
Life’s too short to do giving up.
*I gather the book can also be read by atheists with no ill effects.
My love
Sitting here in Rio listening to wonderful samba I was delighted to read yr blog! Just had an amazing excess of delight at Canaval In Salvaor ( surely the most amazing explosion and coming together of human joy that I have seen) and now returned to my new home steeped in the need for reflexion and wanting to reflect on where my life is. And yr blog filled me with surety and direction. Thank you!!!
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Hurrah, proper carnival! Yay you. Huge love to you both. X
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This post got me thinking about “going for refuge” in the Buddhist sense. Or rather the way most of us go for false refuge in various distractions, so we effectively avoid contemplation. There are so many to choose from (food, the internet, television..) I wouldn’t know where to start!
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haven’t heard of the ‘going for refuge’ concept, Gill. Will look it up.
In the Buddhism I practice we say “earthly desires are enlightenment” – ie, if you try to understand why you have the earthly desire, then there is enlightenment there too. It may not eradicate the desire, nor would we necessarily want to – some human desires (light, ‘home’, heat, food and drink) are what we need to stay alive, but understanding where the desire comes from and what it’s about can tell us a huge amount about ourselves … it’s all about perception …
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I studied meditation and buddhism with (what was) the FWBO, they placed a lot of emphasis of going for refuge to the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha.
“The Three Jewels are the Buddha, the Dharma and the Sangha; that is, the ideal of Enlightenment, the Buddha’s teachings of the path to Enlightenment and the Spiritual community of committed Buddhists.
Going for Refuge is the desire to place these Three Jewels at the heart of one’s life, or at least to live one’s life in a way that reflects the increasing influence of the Three Jewels.”
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yes, in my practice the phrase is “never seek this gohonzon (object of devotion) outside yourself” – if it’s not to be found inside the enlightened self, it’s not going to be anywhere else. (which is a v difficult thing for one brought up in traditional Christianity – with ‘God’ as the outside figure to pray TO – to understand, ref talking about how long it’s taken me to become fully in my practice above, as opposed to immediate epiphanies.)
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Ta for the hat tip and glad my ramblings on your art proved useful in stirring something in you too.
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